I love you like I hate you

Have you heard this song? It’s not that great , just funny. How can you love someone like you hate at the same time? But that’s exactly my relationship with YouTube. I love it as it helps in my studies by connecting me with teachers of the world but I hate it when it suggest me to watch why shah rukh khan is angry at his daughter?

I love it when I learn new hairstyle at home but I hate it when it wants me to watch 10 mistakes in “XYZ” movie. I consider myself lucky when I can find answer to my question in 5 minutes but I wanna bang my head when I see trending list showing how to earn money by putting clove in lemon.

Dear You tube you are the best and worst friend I have ever got. You make me laugh when I am depressed but you make me cry when you suggest me things which are not even remotely related to my search history.

Sometimes I feel you should stop giving suggestions at all. I’ll find my way as per my need. I wish there should some way to block things which I don’t wanna see like movie trailors and everything related to them, cricket updates, random youtubers telling something which I am not gonna use in next 100 years like my husband does my make up tag.

I don’t know whether you tube will be that changed in future or not and if it will how much time will that take but till then I think our relationship status will be complicated.🤔


Medical science in TV shows

I don’t really watch indian tv shows. It’s not like I am a huge fan of American tv shows either except f.r.i.e.n.d.s., house md.,ang himym, these are worth a watch. So last week when I was watching one my mom’s tv serial with her it showed something so horribly disastrous that it made my gut twisted in every way possible.

That serial is currently very famous. Ranking 2nd in TRP rating of that channel. (I checked that on net). So in that show they showed that heroine was 9 months pregnant and she fells from stairs and undergoes emergency delivery ( which I am guessing caesarian as they didn’t specified) and she loses her child but the point is within 15 minutes she starts running in the hospital looking for child. And on the top of that she murders her mother in law on the same day with hospital gown on. Are you kidding with me?? I am 100 % sure that director /writer have not seen women who have just delivered. Normal delivery causes min 500 ml of blood loss and traumatic caesarian would definitely cause min 1-1.5 litre blood loss . Will that lady be in a position to rome around even in the hospital let around in the city?? I gave my mother ”its not possible” look, and she gave me “why do you think so much ” look back.

I am not expecting House MD feel but have some respect towards medicine. There are so many of these things

1.doctors asking relatives to pray to God. My god, in my 85 emergencies never have I even seen any of my senior doctors asking that to patients relative.

2.Taking serious patients brought on trolly directly to operation table. That’s big Nooooo.. we don’t do that. Let patient be any serious you have to carry out basic investigations before taking patient in operation table and first of that is changing clothes . I have seen many shows and even movies where operations have been shown with patients muddy clothes on and that too being successful. Do you even know that there is something called aseptic environment??

3. Doctors don’t wear apron all the the time. Some tv advertisement have shown doctors wearing apron while travelling outside hospital. Do you think scientist will walk with test tube in this hand all the time or architect with drawing papers in his pocket? Ohhh I get it just because the actors love the camera on them 24×7 they think all others professions must be loving to carry their job with them every where. Sorry but we don’t. We like to take off the apron once we are out of the hospital.

4. Showing blood being transfused from one person to other person directly. Are you aware of conditions called AIDS, syphilis or hepatitis B..No..? Because you have to check the blood for those so you can’t transfer blood to the patients till then even if its close relatives.

I think I can write 3-5 post on this topics but my point is “entertainment industry (india) please think at least for 5 minutes while showing something about medical condition, consult a doctor if you can, or don’t as they say sometimes it becomes so bad that its good.”

Yes I am an introvert

When I first saw this post I was about to cry. I really want to carry this with me all the time and show it to people whenever they think I am being weird. Till 15 years of my life, I was sure that I was anti social as that’s what people always used to tell me. I never knew about concept called introvert till then. Everyone around you is so talkative, enthusiast all the time and you are the one who wants to sit at home and read a book so there must be some problem with you. How can everyone else is wrong??

So somewhere around 2008 or 09 everyone started opening facebook account(India). I was not very keen on managing 100 to 1000 friends at the same time so I refused to open account that officially made me anti social. I really felt there is something wrong with me so I took online personality test which showed me that I am 95% introvert. What was that again? Introvert?? So I searched about it as much as I can & found that, it’s so much normal. There are people like me but I have not met many of them yet.

During my college years I met many people like me with whom I can connect. I do have extrovert friends but they don’t think I am abnormal as I am sure that I am not. Being introvert is difficult in this people friendly era where anyone can easily judge you as self centred but if you accept yourself, then you don’t need to prove it to others. I do belive in friendship but I also believe that if you’ll stick so much to your past you can’t find future as attractive as it is.

There are so many videos on you tube about introverts but these two are my favourite. 1. https://youtu.be/BC9dkJ0Xwzg. 2.https://youtu.be/804-ew3Zn7A

So just embrace yourself, love the way you are ,express more often, it’s ok to not have facebook or instagram account just because everyone have it and don’t be shy to sat that books are still your best friends💕

I don’t want a pet dog right now

If you think this is post about dog, I am sorry but it has nothing to do with dog but that’s dialogue of one of my best friend few years ago, about having boyfriend. I know it’s harsh but we were immature teenagers back then.

Her name was Rachel. We were in the same class in 11th and 12th standard. Since everybody else had afternoon college and only 2 of us had a morning college we had to attend classes in afternoon. Since there was no other girl in batch we had no option but to be with each other. We were way out of each orders league. She was a talkative extrovert and I was a shy introvert. She was typical tomboyish girl wearing jeans and collar Tees. She was the one who made me addicted to twilight. There was only thing common to both of us that was our passion for studying. I wanted to get into med school and she into engineering college. We were not wasting any time on partying, watching movies, vacations or any extra curricular activities that will waste our time which included having boyfriend. She used to say this “I don’t want dog right now. I don’t have time to waste on him” and we used to laugh alot on girls having one for wasting time.

But as year passed, they merged 2 batches in one single batch in the classes and we moved away from each other but still shared that passion and troubled each other midnight asking doubts. And then one day I saw her talking with dumbest boy in the class. ( Believe me he was the dumbest person I have ever seen. I m still not sure how he even got into science stream in the first place. He had only one response to all questions, a faint smile,making person confuse whether he understood or not) Anyways I saw her many times after that with same boy. She started coming late for classes eventually missing them. She used to talk with him for hours near class bus stop without bothering to come up. It was major shocked for me. I felt betrayed how could she do his to me. She did not even cared to talk to me after that and I too stooped talking with her. I did not know how much marks she got into 12th nor did I inquired that whether she got into engineering college.

I didn’t feel bad that she had boyfriend but to the fact thar she did not think her friends as part of her life when she met a boy. Grandpa says people change but so drastically?? I always wonder what did she look into him. He was total opposite to her but as my favourite author says “pyar aaya gadhi pe toh pari kya chees hai” meaning teenage is such age where you find donkey also beautiful then what about angel??

The red colour wall

When I first went to Kerala last year I was so happy to see the streets and walls of the city so clean. I could not guess it first but then I realised that people in South india don’t eat/chew ‘pan’. So they don’t spit anywhere they want, the red colour “pichkari” and that’s how walls retain their original colour. I never imagined that’s possible in India.  

In Mumbai we don’t remember the original colour of the wall or street as most of them are red in color. People are so used to it that they spit even on the wall where it’s written “SPITING IS PROHIBITED” in bold letters. Many times it happens when workers start painting the wall from one end and by the the time they reach the other end of the wall, starting point is red again. No one thinks it’s wrong or bad as we see it in every corner of the railway, buses, lifts and all over the street. When you are so used to ugliness it becomes normal. People realise this when they go abroad and see clean streets and after coming back they’ll praise that country and curse ours. India is not dirty country, but people are. They don’t think it’s my country and I am the one who should keep it clean and not the government.

Government actually try many ideas to prevent painting of the walls by people. They ask children and even artist to paint these walls so that people would not want to spit on then but it doesn’t matter even then, as I have seen many such walls getting red again within months. The only thing that works is Gods and goddesses paintings on those walls as people somehow are afraid to spit on them. But entire city coloured with gods poster will look like we are in huge temple or something but till people learn to spit in basin or washrooms or stop eating pan completely , huge temple is not bad idea, or is it??

Movie review- Collateral beauty

Last week I saw the move “collateral beauty”. So many people have recommend me that movie, I have read so many review about it and it was interesting. I did not read wiki page ( as do for other movies when I don’t have time to watch it) and decided to watch it whenever I’ll get free. The movie is not romantic, comedy or fantasy. It’s all about pain and grief. I have cried so many times during it & I still loved it. It doesn’t give you any advice or message it just underlines the importance of time, love and death in our life. It make us remember people who we might have forgotten.

Story is simple of how 3 friends helped their friend by hiring people to do the role of love, time and death while dealing with same problems in their life, and how these actors and friend fpr whom they hired these actors end up helping them instead. Ending is so unpredictable that I cried like hell.

All the actors are just perfect, specially Will Smith. He just nailed it. Every time he cries he makes sure you are with him too. For people like me who think movies are for fun this is a masterstroke movie which is not made for fun, entertainment but still somehow manages to engage you for one and half hour. You should not miss it for anything.

I hate you smokers

To,                                                                          (non) dear smoker,

I hate you more than I hate alcoholic. Actually I don’t hate them at all because whatever they are doing is damaging their own liver and unless they drive they are not threat to society as such. But you guys, I know it’s your personal choice to decide that you want to die with cancer but don’t drag us with you. I know it’s difficult to ask something from you as you don’t care about you own body, it’s difficult that you’ll care about others. But you guys are really fearless, and courageous as I have never seen a packet of any item showing this much horrible images of its consumption and still people buying it.

 From where did you get do so much courage? 

I don’t know about other countries but in india, smoking zone is not very common concept. Smokers will smoke anywhere they want, (preferably away from their home), in any public space, bus stop, railway station even outside schools. I can understand that you guys are going through a lot of stress and that’s your reliever, as god has given all happiness to non smoker. But I still wanna tell u that we do get stress but we use ancient methods to relieve them like painting, dancing, listening to music. Anyways my point is do whatever you want that’s your life just don’t forget that it applies to us too. So whenever you smoke just look around , see if there is not single non smoker within atleast 15 -20 feet of you. As you might be lot of courageous but we are not and we want a natural death not painful one. 

                                               Yours sincerely,                                                        non smoker.